Amber McCrary holds up
zines and a chapter book she created. McCrary hopes to open
an Indigenous-owned publishing press called Abalone Mountain
Press, which will spotlight Native voices. (Photo courtesy
of Amber McCrary)
Amber McCrary has a dream and is raising money to start a publishing
press for Indigenous writers, called Abalone Mountain Press, which
will create books for Native people by Native people.
According to McCrary, there are only a handful of publishing presses
that publish only Indigenous writers and even less that are owned
by Indigenous people.
The idea to start the press began after graduating from a creative
"I started reaching out trying to reach out to different presses
or different places to get published, and I recently finished my
first collection of poetry, which was my thesis for grad school,
and I noticed I was having a really hard time trying to find something
that was rooted in the community of Native American or Diné
community," McCrary said.
She struggled with that for a while and wondered if other Native
or Diné writers were having the same trouble getting published.
"I think a lot of it goes back to the canon or the white gaze,
to accommodate that in order to sell books and I think there's a
lot you have to give up as an Indigenous writer in order to accommodate
a bigger white audience, or white readers," McCrary said. "I felt
like that was taking something away from being a Native writer.
That really is who we are as Native writers. A lot of us want to
talk specifically to Native audiences or Native readers. That was
my number one goal."
McCrary said it is important for Indigenous writers to consider
who their audience is and that she wanted to make sure Native people
felt connected to what she was writing through her poetry or whatever
"I just really thought it would be great to open a press that would
be specifically for Native writers and then also creating this press
by Indigenous people or Diné people, whether it's the logo,
a poetry editor, I just want to make sure there is as much Indigenous
labor going into this press," McCrary said. "The main reason I started
the fundraiser was because I want to make sure they get paid."
McCrary said for Indigenous people, there is a lot of explaining
of who they are and what they do and they don't always get paid
"It can be mentally and emotionally exhausting," she said. "I feel
like that is something that is very important making sure
whoever is involved in this press creatively gets paid."
The meaning behind Abalone Mountain Press
Abalone Mountain Press comes from the Diné name for the
Peaks in Flagstaff, McCrary said.
"Abalone Shell Mountain is one of the four sacred mountains for
Diné," McCrary said on her GoFundMe page. She said in an
interview that the mountain is sacred to the Hopi, as well.
McCrary was born in Tuba City, Arizona. Her mother is from Shonto,
Arizona and her dad is from Hardrock, Arizona. McCrary moved to
Flagstaff when she was seven years old and lived there until she
was about 20 years old.
"I spent most of my adolescent years in Flag and it really informed
who I was as a person, especially artistic wise," McCrary said.
She has a degree in political science and American Indian studies
from Arizona State University.
"That's where I really learned about American Indian issues and
political issues," McCrary said. "About racism and border town racism.
I never really understood it growing up in Flag and I never understood
why I was so confused and angry. Once I took these classes, it all
clicked and I was like, 'Wow. I actually understand this now. I
understand the feelings I was feeling.'"
For graduate school, McCrary went to Mills College in Oakland,
California, where she received her Master of Fine Arts (MFA) in
creative writing with an emphasis in poetry.
She said 90 percent of her cohort was people of color.
"I just learned so much," McCrary said. "I was really blessed by
that because from what I've heard from other people and their MFA
experiences, a lot of them were mainly white."
Most MFA programs are predominantly white, McCrary said.
"A lot of BIPOC (Black, Indigenous and people of color) have shared
that in their writing, they always feel misunderstood or that their
voice isn't as strong as a white person's voice," McCrary said.
"That is true in the publishing world as well. You'd think as far
as we've gone in literature as BIPOC people, there would be more
Indigenous presses out there. But once I was trying to find one,
I had a really hard time."
The struggle, too, for people of color is whether to conform.
"I had an identity crisis of should I just give in to the white
gaze, should I make my work more accommodating toward non-Native
audiences in order to sell more books," McCrary said. "I don't think
I can do that."
McCrary is a multi-media person and she writes zines, a small-circulation
self-published work of original or appropriated texts and images.
That work connected with indigenous youth.
"They're not perfect," McCrary said. "Lots of Native youth reach
out to me and say they love the work. I feel like that really validates
how important peer Native voices [are]. It validated that there
is an audience out there a very strong Native support and
a very strong Native community when it comes to the literature."
The strong Native community and support also addresses stereotypes,
"There's the stereotype that Natives are uneducated or that we
don't read," McCrary said. "It's so untrue. Natives read. They create
so many great things. I'm amazed by how much the Native youth are
creating right now and how they get stuff done."
While the press for now would be located in Mesa (Akimel O'odham
land), McCrary said eventually a goal is for a brick and mortar
store in Flagstaff, where she can engage with the community about
some of the issues she faced growing up.
"I have a very complicated relationship with Flagstaff, but it's
also where a lot of my writings come from my views on things
and why I'm so involved with indigenous politics, indigenous resistance,"
McCrary said. "Growing up in Flag, I felt very ignored, silenced,
unheard. I think that's why it's always been rooted in me to be
heard. Just to have my voice and my experiences out there."
More information about Abalone Mountain Press or to donate at McGrary's
GoFundMe page, https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-start-first-dine-womxn-owned-publishing-press.