I
dream of sleeping again in my grandparents cabin, a place now but
a ghost of a memory... I dream again of a perfect nights sleep,
untroubled by the doubts of adulthood and the fear that we are being
pumped with everyday.
On
my grandma's mattress; 9-11 never happened. On my grandma's mattress;
nuclear weapons were but spit-wads of the mind. On my grandma's
mattress; history was written in love with every stitch. On my grandma's
mattress; sleeping in was not optional, it happened naturally.
My
grandma was a seamstress and she was renowned for making wedding
dresses. Women came from all over the northwestern part of the state
to have her make such dresses for themselves or their daughters
or granddaughters. I have seen pictures of the dresses Lottie made
from the 1890s to the 1940s. She made all her own and her family’s
clothing. I remember my mother telling me that she thought the best
gift she was ever given, by her father was a dress from Sears &
Roebuck, some how store bought was special. Lottie had many patterns,
but the best were in her mind.
For
every dollar grandpa made truck farming and trapping, she made 20
with her needle and thread and she would not consider an electric
sewing machine because the old foot treadle model had a 'better
feel'. In the 1930’s my Uncle Franklin hooked up a motor with a
variable speed knee switch and removed the foot treadle… Lottie
had a total conniption fit. And quickly the sewing machine was returned
to form
The
best thing she ever made was slept on, not worn, and was not something
that was shown to the public but kept in the loft for her children
& grandchildren to use. My mother’s youngest sister, Virginia was
the one that first used it and she talked fondly of it, saying it
caused her to be late for school too many times.
It
all started with my Uncle Warren, 'The Best Rabbit Choker in the
Family' as she called him. One winter he snared over 350 rabbits
in one winter. The meat was food the family needed and his dog was
well feed also. But the treasure was made with the furs. Warren
fleshed out the hides and did the delicate work of curing the hide
with the fur on it. It took a while and the following winter my
grandma did her magic and hand sewed together a mattress out of
the snow-shoe hair hides on a canvas inner lining and pillow cases
out of the cotton tail hides. She saved the money from 5 wedding
dresses and ordered eider down from Iceland and stuffed the mattress
and pillows with them. Grandma went through all the down and made
sure their was not single sharp quill that might poke its way through,
clipping it off if she found it.
The
mattress was not pretty and it looked lumpy and odd. It did not
fit on any frame and merely laid on the floor with a tarpaulin underneath
it. It was big and filled up one end of the loft and was usually
covered with too many blankets and boxes of clothing to sell at
the next church bizarre.
I
remember being about 4 years old and allowed to sleep in the loft
and on it the first time... I was not allowed to drink anything
after supper for fear I might leave my worst on the mattress. Grandma
helped my up the ladder to the loft and made sure I knew what the
slop bucket was for. She then removed the boxes and most of the
blankets and put me on the bed, with my head on the pillow and a
single red and black Pendleton 4-point blanket over me. She kissed
me on the forehead and told me about the making of the bed and how
the blanket was traded to her by an old Indian Grandma when Lottie
made a wedding dress for her granddaughter and they could not afford
to pay for it. As she got up to go back down the ladder she turned
and said, "It is all made with love."
It
was a hard bed to get out of and something tells me it would be
harder today to get out of with my old bones and body. I remember
looking into the rafters of the roof and there were the fishing
poles, nets and waders; all those things that spoke of the life
my grandparents understood. I remember drifting off to the thoughts
of rabbit snares and checking them on the coldest morning with a
happy dog leading the way. I feel asleep with the taste of rabbit
and rutabagas in my dream.
Have
you every laid on a cloud? Have you ever been engulfed with softness?
Have you ever felt the world was perfect? Have you ever forgotten
about everything but the felling of love that has a hold of you?
It
was hard to wake up and in the morning. Eventually my Grandpa came
up, picked me up with a laugh and carried me down the ladder to
a late breakfast.
"That
mattress is the best damn way to miss church don't you know?" He
said with a wink and a knowing smile. When I looked around everyone
else was at church, and it was just me and my 'heathen' Grandpa
left to have brook trout, scrambled eggs, hard bread and milk.
I
only slept on it a few times in my life and of course my Uncle Warren
was given the mattress when it had to be doled out. Somewhere in
California three more generations of Grandma's prodigy have been
engulfed in the love only her fingers could have sewn together.
Have
you ever slept on Grandma's mattress? Have you ever had a preview
of heaven? Have you ever lost yourself to rabbit fur, goose down
and an old Pendleton Blanket? I pity those that haven't but I pity
more those that can’t even imagine when I reminisce of such hand-sewn
heritage!
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